Saturday, June 15, 2013

Here Comes Da Judge! Heres Comes the Judge!

Hello my wonderful friends it is I the Foley Monster, but now I have by a new title, The Honorable Foley Monster First Superior Court Judge at Rainbow Bridge.  That’s right my friends, I got summoned to the Bridge to be a Judge.  You would think here, where every dog has everything they could ever want that there would be no need for a Judge, but you’d be wrong.  Angel dogs get into as many scraps as human dogs.  It’s just that there is no fighting allowed here.  So the angels come before me and I render a decision.  It’s a pretty sweet deal.  Most of the disputes are about things that happen, or are happening, in the human world.  Things like who’s Mom loved who the best.  Luckily my reputation preceded me and my rulings a considered just and fair.  Who knew?

What was hard was getting here.  Whoever that human was who said dying was easy, comedy is hard was nuts.  I can make you laugh with a fart joke.  But dying:  That sucked.  I was stuck in this little box for more than two days and I hated it but if they took me out I couldn’t breathe.  I missed Mommy and Daddy.  I even missed Pocket.  Leo stayed with me.  He is such a sweet boy.  I really would have suffered without him keeping me calm.  McKinsie, Megan and Promise were with me from the Bridge in case I needed to pass over.  It was crowded in there

When I was told I has to go to the Bridge I argued, but when it was explained that I was needed there, and that everyone would take care of Pocket and my parents, I could not refuse.  I got to be held by Mommy and Daddy once again,  I can still feel their loving arms around me, I got a little shot, and then McKinsie, Megan and Promise guided me to the Bridge and we flew right over.

And there it was, in front of me.  Stairs!  Lots and lots of stairs!  Who designed this?  Five minutes ago I was lying in an oxygen cave and now I have to climb stairs?  This place should be called Rainbow Stairs!  Only reason is somebody couldn’t come up with a rhyme for stairs.  Megan put me down and told me that I had to climbs, and I began, slowly, and with each step I saw more of my friends, and my heart grew faster and stronger, and my breathing became easier, and at the top of the stairs Ladybug waited for me with my wings.

She put my wings on and then every dog applauded like I was Chewbacca at the end of the First Star War movies (the first one made, not the first one in story order, I am technically undead so don’t argue with me fanboys.)  Ladybug said they had not had a turnout like this for an arrival in a long time.  I was hopping around saying hi to Tanner, Sierra, PJ, Casey, Apollo, so many other friends, that I lost control and I started flying around like the fat kid learning to work his broom in Harry Potter.  Ladybug and Megan and her sisters got me under control and soon as I flying around like a Seeker.  (No, we don’t play Quidditch.  Move on fanboys.)

I was then led to another part of the Bridge where the humans live.  My Aunt Bev was the first to meet me.  She has always been in so much pain during my life that I never had  chance to play with her, but now we did, running along the river together and playing catch.  It was so wonderful to play with her.  Then I turned around and my heart caught in my throat.  Sitting together, looking at me, and smiling, was Sage and his Mom Jackie Pool.

I went over to her and gave her a big hug.  Then Sage and I began to run around like young pups and Aunt Jackie clapped her hands in delight.  Coming up and joining us was Pepsi, and then I went running over Aunt Gina.  I made sure to tell Aunt Gina and Aunt Jackie how much everyone left behind on Earth love them.

By the time the sun set on the Bridge I had met so many friends I was tuckered out.  My castle on a cloud was still being built so I bunked with Ladybug.  I did miss my Mommy but it’s funny missing people here, you do for a second, and it hurts a bit, but it was like getting a shot, there was a little prick, and it was gone.  (Later on during the week I asked the management to let me feel the pain Mommy was feeling.   They said yes, but I could only stand the pain for a few seconds before I asked them to stop.  Poor Mommy.)

So I will still be popping up now and then, your faithful Rainbow Stairs, I mean Rainbow Bridge correspondent.  From up here I can visit all my puppy friends in their dreams, I can spend time with my friends here, and I can better judge who will receive the prestigious Foley Monster Pup of the Week award.  And I will still answer questions but now it will be called “Ask Angel Foley.”l

Please watch over my left behind family.  I love you all.  Someday we’ll all be together, and we will walk in the sun, but until then keep me in your heart, see me in my dreams, and please keep reading my little thoughts, so I can live in this world of never ending tomorrows, and the world of questionable tomorrows, forever.

See you in your dreams my friends.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Her Song is Over but her Symphony Plays On


From Foley’s Mom:  Foley went to Rainbow Bridge shortly before 3:00 EST today.   She was in her oxygen cave when we arrived.  They let us visit with her.  She was very excited to see us, but she also started to breathe hard.  We spent five minutes with her.  Then they told us to go into an exam room.  They had to put an IV line into her, but when they had tried earlier she had gone into respiratory failure, so they weren’t sure if they could.  They said if she started to pass during the procedure they would get us.  They were able to get the IV line into her and then brought us back out.  They took her out of the cave.  I held her, Ted put a hand on her and held the oxygen line in her mouth.  They put the needle into the IV line and in two breaths she was gone.  We took her into another room to say goodbye.  We took a lock of her hair with us.  She will be cremated and then buried in our garden with a memorial stone.  We will have her ashes, and paw print Tuesday.  We can’t thank you all enough.  We are going to try to attempt to answer all your comments on Tanner Brigade, Doggyspace, Facebook, Twitter and Blogger but it is going to take time.  Grief is like the shore, sometimes it is calm, and sometimes it crashes to shore.  Right now I am in between waves.  

Foley was the perfect dog for us.  Bossy, demanding, and loud she may not have been perfect for everyone but she was for us.  She loved us so, so much.  The doctors believe her body may have been filled with cancer and she struggled to hide it from us because she wanted to be with us.  She would have walked through fire for us.  She has stayed by my side through so many health scares, operations, cancer.  She saved me.  She saved both of us.  On one hand I wish I could have saved her, on the other hand I believe I did, by taking her pain away.  

Foley’s voice will be heard again.  She is in my head, she is in my heart, my soul is entwined with hers.  I am going to take one of her hairs, put it in a locket and wear it forever.  And when I go, I may ask that the box of her ashes be dug up from the garden and be buried with me so we will be together forever.  As long as I am alive, and Ted is alive, her song will never end.

And now a symphony for Foley.

Keep Me in Your Heart For Awhile By Warren Zevon

Shadows are falling and I'm running out of breath
Keep me in your heart for awhile
If I leave you it doesn't mean I love you any less
Keep me in your heart for awhile
When you get up in the morning and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for awhile
There's a train leaving nightly called when all is said and done
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Sometimes when you're doing simple things
around the house
Maybe you'll think of me and smile
You know I'm tied to you like the buttons on
your blouse
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams
Touch me as I fall into view
When the winter comes keep the fires lit
And I will be right next to you
Engine driver's headed north to Pleasant Stream
Keep me in your heart for awhile
These wheels keep turning but they're running out
of steam
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-li-li-lo
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Keep me in your heart for awhile





Company by Rickie Lee Jones
   
I'll remember you too clearly
But I'll survive another day
Conversations to share
When there's no one there
I'll imagine what you'd say

I'll see you in another life now, baby
I'll free you in my dreams
But when I reach across the galaxy
I will miss your company

Company
I'll be looking for company
Look and listen
Through the years
Someday you may hear me
Still crying for company

So now you're going off to live another life
You say we'll dream each other now and then
But we'll never be the same
And I know I'll never have this chance again
No, not like you

So, I'll see you in another life now baby,
I'll free you in my dreams
But when I reach across the galaxy
I will miss your company

Company
I'll be looking for company
Look and listen
Through the years
Someday you may hear me
Still crying for company   

Terry’s Song by Bruce Springsteen

Well they built the Titanic to be one of a kind, but many ships have ruled the seas
They built the Eiffel Tower to stand alone, but they could build another if they please
Taj Mahal, the pyramids of Egypt, are unique I suppose
But when they built you, Foley, they broke the mold

Now the world is filled with many wonders under the passing sun
And sometimes something comes along and you know it's for sure the only one
The Mona Lisa, the David, the Sistine Chapel, Jesus, Mary, and Joe
And when they built you, Foley, they broke the mold

When they built you, Foley, they turned dust into gold
When they built you, Foley, they broke the mold

They say you can't take it with you, but I think that they're wrong
'Cause all I know is I woke up this morning, and something big was gone
Gone into that dark ether where you're still young and soft and bold
Just like when they built you, Foley, they broke the mold

Now your death is upon us and we'll return your ashes to the earth
And I know you'll take comfort in knowing you've been roundly blessed and toasted
But love is a power greater than death, just like the songs and stories told
And when she built you,Foley, she broke the mold

That attitude's a power stronger than death, alive and burning her stone cold
When they built you, Foley they broke the mold

Today is Bridge Day

I am so sorry my friends but last night the Lord came to me and told me that all my friends at the Bridge are raising such a ruckus I am needed there to calm them down.  I will be making my journey early this afternoon.  I will miss so much of life, and my wonderful parents, and little sister, but the Lord agreed to let me still communicate with you, in time.  Pocket is ready to take my place here.  Thank you all for your prayers and for one more dawn.  I know you will take care of those I leave behind.  I am sorry.  I tried to defy him but I can’t breathe outside the oxygen cave for more than 15 minutes.  Bless you all.  

Saturday, June 8, 2013

The Sun Hasn't Set on This Girl Yet


I’m not dead yet
No, still alive,
Although I got to fight and struggle to survive
I’ve got to take all I can get
Don’t count me out
I’m not dead yet

Los beunos dias muchachos!  Yes I am still here.  Let’s start with the bad news.  I am still in my oxygen cave but my levels are rising.  Hopefully I can breathe on my own tomorrow.  And they don’t know what is wrong with me.  The results from my x-ray have not come back.  Apparently they are read by an illegal radiologist on the other side of the Mexican border and the mule carrying them wandered down the Rio Grande.  When he wanders back it is more likely than not that I have lung cancer but hey, so what? Lot’s of my friends have cancer.  It’s the new swine flu.

Mommy and Daddy had talked with the doctors this morning and I was not doing well at all.  They made the decision that unless the mule came back with the unlikely diagnosis that I just have an infection they were going to send me to the Bridge.  It was scheduled for this evening and Mommy and Daddy had a very emotional day.  They prayed they wouldn’t have to but they were not going to let me suffer.

Leo has been with me holding my paw and lying with me, keeping me company, and he told me my parents’ plan.  Whhhaaaaaatttttt?  Then I heard the voices.  The hundreds of voices praying for me, over and over, for just one more day for me.  Leo told me everyone was praying for me, on TB, DS, Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, hundreds of voices saying one thing:  “One more dawn.  One more day.  One day more!”  And those voices went through my ears, and into my heart, and I found the will to fight.

I popped up and began sucking in that oxygen.  I didn’t take to it at first but let me tell you, that stuff is great!  You ever see an old man walking down the road with one of those oxygen tank knock them over and take a whiff.  

Mommy and Daddy had to wait for an hour in the waiting room to see me, thinking that it would be the last time they saw me.  Meanwhile I was doing what I do best.  Working on my closing statement.  When my Mommy and Daddy came in I put forth the argument of my career.  I was eating when they came in, I barked, I wagged my tail, I jumped on the glass, I pawed the glass.  When Mommy opened the little door to the cave I licked and licked her hand and then gave Daddy a face kiss.  When I was done Mommy and Daddy knew I was not ready to go to the Bridge.  Not today anyway.  Their plan is to get me home and monitor me everyday and let me tell them when it is time to go.  

There is no guarantee I am even going to make it out of the cave.  But for one day, this one glorious day, I made my stand for one day more.  And it is thanks to you.  I know I said no prayers my friends, but now that I have a chance to go back home, I ask you to add to my heartbeats, to help me finish my symphony, to give me the glorious gift of another today.

Thank you all, you gave me a great gift, you gave me a today.  Not worrying about tomorrow.  No day but today

The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn

There is no future
There is no past
Thank God this moment's not the last

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today

There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what is right
No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only hope
is just to be

There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today

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