The Sun Hasn't Set on This Girl Yet

I’m not dead yet

No, still alive,

Although I got to fight and struggle to survive

I’ve got to take all I can get

Don’t count me out

I’m not dead yet

Los beunos dias muchachos!  Yes I am still here.  Let’s start with the bad news.  I am still in my oxygen cave but my levels are rising.  Hopefully I can breathe on my own tomorrow.  And they don’t know what is wrong with me.  The results from my x-ray have not come back.  Apparently they are read by an illegal radiologist on the other side of the Mexican border and the mule carrying them wandered down the Rio Grande.  When he wanders back it is more likely than not that I have lung cancer but hey, so what? Lot’s of my friends have cancer.  It’s the new swine flu.

Mommy and Daddy had talked with the doctors this morning and I was not doing well at all.  They made the decision that unless the mule came back with the unlikely diagnosis that I just have an infection they were going to send me to the Bridge.  It was scheduled for this evening and Mommy and Daddy had a very emotional day.  They prayed they wouldn’t have to but they were not going to let me suffer.

Leo has been with me holding my paw and lying with me, keeping me company, and he told me my parents’ plan.  Whhhaaaaaatttttt?  Then I heard the voices.  The hundreds of voices praying for me, over and over, for just one more day for me.  Leo told me everyone was praying for me, on TB, DS, Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, hundreds of voices saying one thing:  “One more dawn.  One more day.  One day more!”  And those voices went through my ears, and into my heart, and I found the will to fight.

I popped up and began sucking in that oxygen.  I didn’t take to it at first but let me tell you, that stuff is great!  You ever see an old man walking down the road with one of those oxygen tank knock them over and take a whiff.  

Mommy and Daddy had to wait for an hour in the waiting room to see me, thinking that it would be the last time they saw me.  Meanwhile I was doing what I do best.  Working on my closing statement.  When my Mommy and Daddy came in I put forth the argument of my career.  I was eating when they came in, I barked, I wagged my tail, I jumped on the glass, I pawed the glass.  When Mommy opened the little door to the cave I licked and licked her hand and then gave Daddy a face kiss.  When I was done Mommy and Daddy knew I was not ready to go to the Bridge.  Not today anyway.  Their plan is to get me home and monitor me everyday and let me tell them when it is time to go.  

There is no guarantee I am even going to make it out of the cave.  But for one day, this one glorious day, I made my stand for one day more.  And it is thanks to you.  I know I said no prayers my friends, but now that I have a chance to go back home, I ask you to add to my heartbeats, to help me finish my symphony, to give me the glorious gift of another today.

Thank you all, you gave me a great gift, you gave me a today.  Not worrying about tomorrow.  No day but today

The heart may freeze or it can burn

The pain will ease if I can learn

There is no future

There is no past

Thank God this moment's not the last

There's only us

There's only this

Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss.

No other road

No other way

No day but today

There's only yes

Only tonight

We must let go

To know what is right

No other course

No other way

No day but today

I can't control

My destiny

I trust my soul

My only hope

is just to be

There's only now

There's only here

Give in to love

Or live in fear

No other path

No other way

No day but today